Rejuvenation

Alright so I realize that this has been a LONG while, since I last posted.

The reasons for it are, well, numerous, but mostly it just boils down to not being able to formulate thoughts enough to put them into words, or these thoughts being just on a one-on-one level that being able to say them would've just resulted in a host of cryptic posts that get people calling me and asking "who what when where why how?".

And yes I do realize thats representative of SEVERAL of my earlier posts.

But regardless...

I've come to a realization. The things I wish for, the things I ask for, the things I basically want are the things that have caused me the most pain. Perhaps its an instant retribution for selfishness? Or perhaps its just that these things are the ones I can't seem to achieve however hard I try, only because I don't know how to, and I refuse the help of whoever is willing to extend that hand. The one-man mission is something that I know, in the past, has crashed and burned terribly. Thank God for the rescuing force I found in my angel.

And thank you all, this time, for helping me realize where I stand.

Silence that became oppressive is now solace, because there's music in it :).

I know that sounds cryptic, but its actually literal. There's a tune that lilts in and out of the mind when faced with silence when one knows every thing's alright.

Time that passes will pass as it must, its how we shape each moment that defines what it does to affect us in the future.

Here's to shaping for something beautiful.

The following is a song that one of my new friends showed me that seems to fit so much in my life. Its "Your Guardian Angel" by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. Quirky name for a band, I know. They never released and official video for the song, so the following is a fanvid made using clips from Kingdom Hearts, a Square Enix game for the Sony Playstation. Its fitting, but a little confusing. Anyways, I hope you enjoy the song.

And again, thank you.



The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus Your Guardian Angel Lyrics

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Till I post again (no promises this time, but it should be soon),

Whispers in Silence...